I'm alright

I'm alright. I really am.
I'm just another one of those disheartened souls who has had too many disappointments in their life.
Sometimes I don't even know why I failed.

Its funny how a perfect day like today has made me so thoughtful.
A great day out with Chai, some good chats with my classmates... I dont know. Somehow even with these perfect friends, something is lacking once more.
Not a person, but my soul.
Is it?

I don't have any directions anymore, no idea, no guidance and emphasis on anything whatsoever. No clue on what I should do and what I HAVE to do.
Basically I've lost faith in living.
Theres nothing to live for.
No one to live for.
Living just for the sake of living.

The most important thing of all?
I'm becoming the person that I hate.