Braces!

Just plucked out 2 of my precious tooth :( I was boss enough to tell the dentist I wanted to have both of my lower jaw teeth plucked out during the same session XD the sedative totally knocked my senses out and I couldn't even feel my lips and my tongue D: but then I think it was generally ok.. when the painkillers gone off there was a throbbing pain all the way till now >.< but nonetheless I survived it :) Next week im gonna put the braces and I'll look like a nerd for the next two years :(
Next week I have 6 tests asdfghkhksjdlfkjsdl but still I'll persevere and strive harder towards my goal!

Replaying the past

Everytime I do something stupid its just exactly the way I failed in the past, maybe I don't learn from my mistakes. Maybe I do but I just can't help but make the same mistakes again. Sec 1, Sec 2, Sec4. Thank god sec 3 was somewhat spared.

The truth hurts

What can you do... If you have a secret to tell your good friend, yet don't want to tell him and break his heart? This sucks really. I dont wanna think about this, maybe I shouldn't have known about it.
I haven't been talking to anyone much recently... maybe alot of things are on my mind. I don't know really.... I'm just unstable recently. I'm not supposed to be affected.

I've probably lost my way again

Obviously I remember my resolves. I'm determined to keep it. Well, that would have probably been my resolution for the rest of the year, or perhaps even till JC. Now I'm not sure anymore. I'm starting to feel insecure, feel helpless. I FEEL LOST. What happened to me I'm not sure. I can't see my future anymore. It's like more often than not that I've woken up to a bad dream where I've dreamt that I would screw my life up and end up in a polytechnic or something. I don't want that to happen.
I think I'm a hypocrite. All those things I claim in BSC might just end up becoming true again. It's such a burden you know, to feel bad... about... everything.
Ranting for me has never gone well, and I might as well create something to vent out on. Possibly...just possibly, Bao that retard is the only idiot who I can ever vent to. I don't trust anyone else. Maybe its the masculinity barrier. hehe.
This is taking my time off studying, so I'll just stop here. 4 tests every single day except for friday next week. Sad, sad sec 4 life.
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