I'm growing fatter but I don't care.
Hell yeah chips are awesome. 2 bags of chips for 4 bucks aussie!
SWEET.
We went to robinson's shopping center today. And I feel happy :D even though i didnt buy anything haha.
Life is australia, though short, is great. Gonna be back in singapore in 5 days though :( Sad.
Saturday, April 28, 2012
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Dilemma
I've never been good in dealing with dilemmas.
I can't decide which sweet to choose in a shop, be it sour skittles or that sour mentos (yes I absolutely love sour stuff).
I can't decide on what birthday gift I want.
I can't decide which movie to watch.
Yeah, thats how bad it is.
So now I'm facing another dilemma.
To do or not to do?
This term has been horrible.
I have just effectively registered a double C6 for math this term. That's probably the worst result I've gotten this 4 years in HCI.
My mere 28 (A2) for the second test could do nothing more than pull my F9 from the first test to a meagre C6.
Oh well. Life goes on. I shouldn't go for PE if a test period was after that though.. I just can't concentrate after exercising.
Ah... Oh well.
Tomorrow I shall start another chapter of this Secondary four life, embarking on a journey to Brisbane with friends Wiseley, Mingxia, Yao Qiang, Jonathan and more.. I hope I can find the spark of life in me there again :) I hope I can regain my form!
At the start of this year, I remember swearing to get a 1+ for my eoy this end of year. I achieved a landmark step in term 1. But term 2 hasn't been great. I shall work harder for the remaining tests. Hope you're here with me.
"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened" - Dr Seuss
I shall savour last term's success. And emulate it again. Cheers to life!
I can't decide which sweet to choose in a shop, be it sour skittles or that sour mentos (yes I absolutely love sour stuff).
I can't decide on what birthday gift I want.
I can't decide which movie to watch.
Yeah, thats how bad it is.
So now I'm facing another dilemma.
To do or not to do?
This term has been horrible.
I have just effectively registered a double C6 for math this term. That's probably the worst result I've gotten this 4 years in HCI.
My mere 28 (A2) for the second test could do nothing more than pull my F9 from the first test to a meagre C6.
Oh well. Life goes on. I shouldn't go for PE if a test period was after that though.. I just can't concentrate after exercising.
Ah... Oh well.
Tomorrow I shall start another chapter of this Secondary four life, embarking on a journey to Brisbane with friends Wiseley, Mingxia, Yao Qiang, Jonathan and more.. I hope I can find the spark of life in me there again :) I hope I can regain my form!
At the start of this year, I remember swearing to get a 1+ for my eoy this end of year. I achieved a landmark step in term 1. But term 2 hasn't been great. I shall work harder for the remaining tests. Hope you're here with me.
"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened" - Dr Seuss
I shall savour last term's success. And emulate it again. Cheers to life!
Monday, April 23, 2012
Saturday, April 21, 2012
Bad start to the day X.X
Barca lost 1-2 to madrid.
All hopes of the la liga title lost. This is daunting.
Im quite sad that this happened. Oh well.
Had my braces tightened yesterday.. and hell did it hurt .. Im back to eating porridge again.. (at least for today). Got 4 tests next week. I should be really quite stressed and stuff but I don't feel anything. Well, probably cause I don't give a shit anymore. Hope I can do well for math. Haish
All hopes of the la liga title lost. This is daunting.
Im quite sad that this happened. Oh well.
Had my braces tightened yesterday.. and hell did it hurt .. Im back to eating porridge again.. (at least for today). Got 4 tests next week. I should be really quite stressed and stuff but I don't feel anything. Well, probably cause I don't give a shit anymore. Hope I can do well for math. Haish
Friday, April 20, 2012
Brisbane!
I can't wait till next Wednesday. I'll have another 10 days to escape from reality and really just... lax. I wanna relax and chill.. but I have too many tests next week. Should really start doing work and stuff :/
I have been wondering... are the alot of people around me, putting a smile? Are there many people faking their happiness, forcing a laughter? Are they actually hurting within? How many of my friends out there actually have alot of problems, but are actually hiding them away and just keeping it inside them, crying to themselves, emoing on their own?
I really wonder. I wanna put a smile on everyone's faces. I wanna be someone who people can share their troubles with, and probably provide some comfort for my friends. I don't hate anyone. Hating has never been something I'm strong at. Or maybe I'm someone who needs too many reasons to hate. No matter the case. I want everyone to be happier.
Don't say FML. Life isn't something worth f*king around. It's not life thats screwing you up. Life should have challenges. Challenges are what that makes up grow up and become better. Like what people always say : When life gives you lemons, you make lemonade
I have been wondering... are the alot of people around me, putting a smile? Are there many people faking their happiness, forcing a laughter? Are they actually hurting within? How many of my friends out there actually have alot of problems, but are actually hiding them away and just keeping it inside them, crying to themselves, emoing on their own?
I really wonder. I wanna put a smile on everyone's faces. I wanna be someone who people can share their troubles with, and probably provide some comfort for my friends. I don't hate anyone. Hating has never been something I'm strong at. Or maybe I'm someone who needs too many reasons to hate. No matter the case. I want everyone to be happier.
Don't say FML. Life isn't something worth f*king around. It's not life thats screwing you up. Life should have challenges. Challenges are what that makes up grow up and become better. Like what people always say : When life gives you lemons, you make lemonade
Thursday, April 19, 2012
Bleh
I find twitter not safe anymore for me to rant and stuff. Too many people are getting on twitter. But then I'm being a stupid retard sharing my blog link on my twitter profile. Maybe I should remove it soon.
Had an interesting discussion with Daryl Marcus Wiseley Xavier and MingXia on the way home today. Why do results determine everything. This society is screwed. I think I should just live as a hermit in the middle of some mountain when I grow up. Fame, girls and wealth matter nothing to me. Results are stupid. The anime world is much better (quote Marcus Low)
Ugh well had my lit test today it went along fine so hope I did well for it? I guess I emphasized too much on colors. Alvin Teo is becoming a stuck up bitch. Even though I find nothing on him spectacular. Oh well. Ranting too much isnt good for my health. Im actually quite happy today. Haha
Had an interesting discussion with Daryl Marcus Wiseley Xavier and MingXia on the way home today. Why do results determine everything. This society is screwed. I think I should just live as a hermit in the middle of some mountain when I grow up. Fame, girls and wealth matter nothing to me. Results are stupid. The anime world is much better (quote Marcus Low)
Ugh well had my lit test today it went along fine so hope I did well for it? I guess I emphasized too much on colors. Alvin Teo is becoming a stuck up bitch. Even though I find nothing on him spectacular. Oh well. Ranting too much isnt good for my health. Im actually quite happy today. Haha
Sunday, April 15, 2012
So what have I been doing
What exactly have I been doing.
What exactly is my purpose in life.
I've fought, I've won battles, i lost some. But whats the point in fighting?
Are academics all we are aiming for? Straight A's, MSG of 1.0, being impressive with scholarships lining up for you to pick, with top universities waiting to grab you. Is that what everyone is aiming for? Is that what we WANT?
I really want to relive those wonderful 6weeks in Beijing. With friends, without a worry in life not having any grand pursuits and spectacular goals in their mind for them to chase. BSC was worry free, and it was liberating.
BSC gave me the inspiration to work hard in term 1. To actually dictate my life for once, to study and not slack like how I used to. Well, should I be happy that I have registered a somewhat impressive MSG of 1.9? After success comes the complacency. I grew complacent. I grew TIRED. There just isnt anything for me to work towards anymore. What can a good result give you? NOTHING. I don't feel different. I don't feel any motivation to dictate my life again. Well, doing bad isn't exactly great, but I think doing too well doesnt help you either. What would people do to you if you are excelling academically? Parents love you? People showing you off? "Look, he's a genius"
I have to get back my inspiration. Just what am I working for. I really want to get that HP scholarship, but currently I just feel as if doing well in term 2 DOES NO SHIT. What can I do now? How do I get back that drive?
These few weeks havent been great. I kinda regret making some friends last year. Some of them dont make me feel like their friends. I cared for them, treated them like friends but apparently they didn't think the same for me. There have been quite a few conflicts in my life recently. Bickering with Giggs, ignoring Guan. Failing math. Getting constantly scolded at and nagged by parents. What am I doing. Nothing feel right. Nothing is right.
I hope I can pick up my form again, cause I'm just ranting into this blog hoping for a single trace of relief and sanctuary for this weary and tired soul.
Few people understand me right now.
What exactly is my purpose in life.
I've fought, I've won battles, i lost some. But whats the point in fighting?
Are academics all we are aiming for? Straight A's, MSG of 1.0, being impressive with scholarships lining up for you to pick, with top universities waiting to grab you. Is that what everyone is aiming for? Is that what we WANT?
I really want to relive those wonderful 6weeks in Beijing. With friends, without a worry in life not having any grand pursuits and spectacular goals in their mind for them to chase. BSC was worry free, and it was liberating.
BSC gave me the inspiration to work hard in term 1. To actually dictate my life for once, to study and not slack like how I used to. Well, should I be happy that I have registered a somewhat impressive MSG of 1.9? After success comes the complacency. I grew complacent. I grew TIRED. There just isnt anything for me to work towards anymore. What can a good result give you? NOTHING. I don't feel different. I don't feel any motivation to dictate my life again. Well, doing bad isn't exactly great, but I think doing too well doesnt help you either. What would people do to you if you are excelling academically? Parents love you? People showing you off? "Look, he's a genius"
I have to get back my inspiration. Just what am I working for. I really want to get that HP scholarship, but currently I just feel as if doing well in term 2 DOES NO SHIT. What can I do now? How do I get back that drive?
These few weeks havent been great. I kinda regret making some friends last year. Some of them dont make me feel like their friends. I cared for them, treated them like friends but apparently they didn't think the same for me. There have been quite a few conflicts in my life recently. Bickering with Giggs, ignoring Guan. Failing math. Getting constantly scolded at and nagged by parents. What am I doing. Nothing feel right. Nothing is right.
I hope I can pick up my form again, cause I'm just ranting into this blog hoping for a single trace of relief and sanctuary for this weary and tired soul.
Few people understand me right now.
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