Conciliation

There are many ways to fault a person, and it is always easy to put the blame on others.
What's hard is to not do anything and just let it be.

Speaking with the right friends do help. People put things into retrospect, allow you to see things from a different perspective. They allow you to realize your own worth. Your own abilities. They let you see for yourself that you are actually not that bad at all.

Blogger has become an outdated platform for .. blogging. But that doesn't mean I'll abandon it. Well, this lonely little site has accompanied me for the past 2 years (soon) and has recorded down every little bit of my tumultuous emotional journey.

Looking back, at this crazy year, this crazy hell of a journey that is JC 1, I've really learnt and grown alot. Not everything was pleasant. Not everything was smooth, but it made me stronger, it has taught me lessons.
It showed me the brighter side of things while educating me on what not to do in the future. Its just that simple.

JC has taught me to look at failures positively. Failure becomes the norm here. Rejections seem normal. Thats just how it is. From HP, to KI, to dramafest and OCIP, every rejection has broken my heart, brought down my esteem and made me disappointed in myself. But with the rejections there comes an even greater desire to improve myself, to become better so that this kind of rejections will not happen again.

Its funny how I remember swearing to get my shit together at the start of this year.
Well, I didn't.
I still slacked and played around. But so what.
I made friends. I enjoyed my life. Heck. My results didn't even turn out that bad.

note to self.
Biggest problem of current self (since sec 1)

Tends to be overbearing when endearing.
Needs much work on