Thimun Singapore 2013

This week has been a fairly... Eventful and interesting week I guess. Its been wonderful and fun in every sense, be it from the tense debates to the wonderful dance night we had. 

Thimun Singapore (18-22 November) has been truly and eye opener. I've never been to such a big international conference before, literally everyone there was from overseas, from a different culture, a different background. Frankly, before I went for the conference there was even a sense of trepidation towards what entailed. I thought it will just be another boring conference, another competitive model United Nations. How wrong was I! 

This MUN isn't just ANY OTHER MUN. It was special. There were feels. There were... Sentiments and connections between the people. There was fun and laughter. There were friendships forged. Yes, I did make friends from SMUN, but this conference is on another level. It opened my eyes. Showed me another aspect of this conference that I have never ever seen before. 

This mun has created really really deep friendships. It has created a passion for the cause. I went to send of delegates from the dulwich school in Beijing with Ronnie, Ernest and Shaun. They weren't exactly my friends, they were Ronnie's and Ernest's. We were basically strangers, yet they have touched me like never before. Antonio and Ji hwan are veterans in the MUN field. They have joined the past few THIMUN SGs. They have been a part and parcel of this conference since I don't know when. Every year without fail, they will be ever present at this grand conference to share their insights on the global world. 

Both of them are graduating soon. This was their last MUN. It wasn't hard to see why they were sad. They have developed a feeling for the conference, a love for this city, a passion for the debate. They couldn't bear to leave. How could they bear to? This was part of their lives. Their friends that they made? They will miss them for sure. 

Listening to their story, I just can't help but feel kinda sad that thimun is over. I'll admit it, I have never been part of this conference for long. Just short 5 days of frustrating debates. But I have learned so much from other people. I learned to make friends from people all around the world. I learned to embrace differences and learn about new cultures. I have come to realize that, though geographically different, we are not that much different after all. I have made so many genuine friends, so many special people whom I can't bear to see leaving. And for me, there is no next year. No next thimun. This was my first and my last. I will miss the experience. Will miss the people. But I will love the memories. 

Till then...

Take care everyone 

The bunch from GA2 

With Na Young 

With Roger 

With Sophia 

With Rosalind 

Sent off the Beijing dulwich people 

With Jenna 

With Kelly 

And the pretty girl whose name I don't even know (sigh)

Delegate of Togo, 

Over and out for one last time

Finally a happy post!

Wow yesterday I had a really good day - like legitly a wonderfully fun packed and optimistic day and on top of that I took a lot of photos with the people that mattered the most!

Yesterday was really packed cause I had a lot of people that I knew there and I wanted to spend time with all of them haha (but I ended up pangsehing my class for quite a long period of time I guess I spend enough with them in school alr anyway). So basically the day yesterday was spent with TENNIS, 4A1 and 13A11! 

The event was pretty well organized and everything was just pretty well done. Other than this there was also Apollo FO which I went to the day before with Amy and Cat haha it was equally enjoyable. Really really really thankful for so many friends I can trust ☺️

They always say for FOs you have to go with the right crowd and I guess the best crowd is actually with retards like chai hahaha he made everything so fun and crazy and on top of that because he's damn sociable he made everything much less awkward hehe. So now let me dedicate some photos to important friends ^^ 

Xm who was a faggot and told me this place is damn emo. Friends for 5 years liao really enjoyed it with you!

Amy my best friend hahaha (no seriously we are just friends) thanks for standing up to my shit and stuff for the past year hehe. 

Pure lit/Brisbane brothers haha greatest guys I'll meet for a while man. True bros!

My class! Or classes but yes my awesome place of retarded non stop fun haha love all the people inside 

And who can forget tennis? Closest group of teammates one can ever ask for :) I love this pic cause I look damn good here yay

Well that's all for now I really really enjoyed yesterday yayyy

Lost track of myself and the ones around me
wonder if theres a way to make it up.

Perspective

After all this while. Finally everything is into perspective.
I've been an arrogant,
self centered,
egotistical,
unbelievable hind sighted person.
I've started to chase after the intangibles, to dabble with the unknowns, to search for greener pastures while all the while the greenest pasture was the one I was standing on.

I've been too engrossed with myself, too caught up with myself.
I've been too selfish, only being interested in my own happiness, only concerned with what I wanted and only engrossed in what I deemed to be pertinent.

Well, if thats the case.
None of my friends around me were deemed pertinent recently, I guess.

I'm just caught up with myself and I'm not proud of it.
I'm just becoming a despicable fool that I swore not to ever become.
I'm becoming the one person I hate.

But I'm glad, glad that all these perspectives came falling down onto me by a few simple messages from one of the person who means the most. A person who was fed up, and honest about it.

I'm tired of acting like everything is okay. Yes, it was okay the day before, the week before. Even the month before.
But today,

I'm not going to hide anymore. I'm not okay.
I need to change.
I need to be a better person.



I need to let go of the past that I was so foolishly clinging onto.
I need to be the person that the future me would come to admire,not the one I hate.

Starting from today.
I start anew.I'm no longer going to harp over the past. It is time to let go.
It is time to change and stop..

I don't want this to become another cycle.
David...

Its time to forget