Team

Now that the nationals are over, it feels as if something is missing from life. Something has suddenly left my life.
What's funny is that I didn't even play. I couldn't play because I wasn't good enough. But I was in the team, I was a member of this unassailable ship that was destined for greatness.
We tried. We worked hard. We practiced, we trained, we persevered. We had this aim to make history, to break into the top 4 for the first time since idek when.
It's not easy. Let me tell you why. Tennis is one sport that is the most heavily reliant on an influx of talents. For the school to do well in tennis they almost HAD to have a bunch of students who have been awesome at tennis since primary school. It's one of those sports that people start from young, from as young as 3 years old.
That is why RI and ACS(I) have been dominating this sport for the past decades. They rely on a large number of DSAs and good players to clinch them the gold. HCI has stringent DSA policy that limits on the DSAs we could have. And that is maybe why we can never do well.
But why do we need dsas? You don't need to start on a sport from young to do well.
You have to be determined, train hard and put your mind to it.

That is the disappointing part. I've been giving my 10% for training for the past few years. This shouldn't be the case. The difference between me and the others are getting bigger and bigger because of the way I've been fooling around. This shouldn't be how it is like. I can't be a burden to the team anymore.
Regardless of the commitment, I should train more.
NO. I MUST TRAIN MORE.
Train harder and play better. Step up my mental game.

Next year when people ask me "hey how was it, did you play?" I can proudly say "yeah, we did. And we won".
I want to be the one who can help the team and play for the school. I want to become part of the legacy, the team that had a breakthrough into the top 4. To be forever installed into the hall of fame, and leave this school without any regrets.
Can I do it?
I am afraid I cannot commit. Am always distracted. Become a burden in everything I do.
Stop it David. Balance your time better, you can do it.

Yes you can.