Dream

I had a dream yesterday, it was one of the weirdest dreams I had in a long time.
What was it like? I dreamt that I have already grown up, that I have graduated from university 7-8 years later. I just came back to Singapore from my overseas education and I was looking for a house.
It felt weird and surreal that I was staring at myself, the successful, older version of myself. It felt weird to feel like someone older, and burdened with problems that grownups have to face.

It felt weird, that I went to visit the condo that I now live in, and I saw how the future was very very different from now. The houses were more modern, the buildings were whitewashed. There was a garden in the middle of the building. I can't really describe it. There is a rooftop garden with a view towards bedok reservoir. The view was beautiful, it was splendid yet unnatural. It did not feel natural, but it felt so right, so beautiful and so mesmerizing. The oasis was far from the view, and the sun was just setting from the horizon. There was a tinge of orange and yellow, as well as some purple, giving off a picturesque image of the view. It was like staring into a picture. So beautiful and so mesmerizing. I want to draw it out, but I'm not good enough.

And here comes the worst part of this dream - I actually cried in it. Like, seriously. I haven't cried in a dream since idk when. The last time I did indeed cry in a dream was probably when I was 8 and I dreamt that I went to heaven. This time it wasn't because of sadness, nor joy do I cry. It was more of a sad sense of sudden realization that my adult years are coming to me, and I don't have much time to live. Soon enough I will grow up, buy a house, have a kid. Sooner or later I will retire and die. It is that fast, and it is quite scary. I don't know what to feel about it.