Firstly, this blog is quite personal. Supposedly. I have no hell of an idea how it got 300+ views in the past month.. oh well.
This is probably why I refrain from talking about love here. Its not a good place to talk about it. This is merely a place for me to rant and be somewhat... philosophical. And I wanna keep it that way.
This previous week has been excruciating challenging.. the toughest week of my life. Bad things happen everyday.. nothing good has happened. Sigh. I didn't have the drive to go on this term. That is what I'm totally honest about. Another thing I'm totally honest is that I studied more this term than I did last term. Yet I can't replicate that 1.9 MSG. I think the reason was that I didn't spend my time studying "efficiently" to say the least. No point in doing well this term, I said to myself. Kinda regret it now, being pathetic in a pathetic class. Utterly pathetic.
My life has been quite rife with failures already. Not managing a special programme, not even CSE, only special programme just because I screwed up my math and science in sec 2. Science was never my strong suit I admit, but I am quite decent in math. Still, I don't want my sec 4 to end up like my sec 2. It can't happen. I won't let it happen.
Post HRSY blues are probably still here. I really wanna see the hong kong people and the Australian people again. But I probably won't see them anytime soon. Thats sad but true. HRSY was a good experience. Many many friends made, my group (SONY) was awesome. However, it probably could have been better if I didn't have to take any tests there. Sad but true once again. I flopped all my 3 tests there even though I put in effort in it. 2nd worst Chinese result in my 4 years here (68), worst Chem result ever (Failed) and my worst Physics result ever (53). Laugh couldn't be more daunting.
Onto my main point. I have failed this term. I admit that I have failed. I have fallen from that grace. But I assure you all I'll stand up stronger and better. No, no assure. It WILL happen and I shall see that it does. My determination shan't crumble. I think I have found the drive to study again so thats great. As long as I have the drive I can move forward.
On a side note. SLC is coming and the Fac Trainings were awesome! The only good thing that has happened.. probably. Facs are bonding well... I can feel it. Hope SLC would be awesome and I can't wait to go for it on 29th May!
The koala has met it's rightful owner today haha. Hope it gets well taken care of :)
Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts.
Winston Churchill
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