In sec 1 I was naive, in sec 2 I was hopeful. In sec 3 I was broken. Sec 4 I'm cold. I can't believe how 4 years of school has changed me. How I used to be so enthusiastic and interested in everything. How I got myself broken again and again by the people I cherish. Failure haunts me. How hurt every single time I care for a friend, yet get my concern brushed away and taken lightly... Really hurts me.
Maybe I should have stayed in Canada. There everyone cares for each other. I can tell my friend what I feel. We all care for each other.
Singapore is a cold society. No one gives a shit about my feelings. No one gives a shit about anyone's feeling. I am becoming cold, I am becoming heartless. I am becomming to heartless and cold, to the extent that people who do not know me well think that I'm dao, that I'm cold. That I don't care.
I do.
And why do I care so much about you then? You have mistaken me. I am not as inquisitive as you think. Maybe it's only you who I am inquisitive to. You are the on who I entered into your life and felt that you were someone who hid many problems in your heart. You had so many problems that you werent willing to share with. I felt that I could be someone who could make your day better, make you happier.
Again, I have no clue again. No more clue. I'm a failure as a friend. I'm sorry
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