Clues?

It took me this long to realize that I'm a really emotionally attached person.
I just can't bear seeing people hurt and sad...
Emotionally pained..
scarred.

It's really painful for me to watch my friends go about in anguish and talking about how they wanna die.
Don't die.
Life is worth living.
"Convince me, that life is worth living"
and honestly, I can't convince you. I haven't found my purpose in my life.
When will I find it? I have no clue too.

So, for the past 8 months, I have duly operated this blog, poured my heart into it. What was the reason I made this blog? I think it was because you had a blog. And I felt that this was the place for me to pour my heart into.
I used to have many avenues to pour my heart into. One of them is gone.
This is one I mustn't lose.

Sometimes, I really hoped that I was cold, like then I won't be able to care and give a shit about other people.. like honestly. I don't give a fuck.
IDGAF.
But nope, I can never do that. I won't stop caring for my friends, I won't stop being the friend I want myself to be.

I saw Yee Hong today.. after so, so long. I really missed him... my best friend.. the idiot who knows everything about me.
I really hope he can work hard and come back to Hwa Chong, I wanna spend more time chatting with him and doing all sorts of retarded shit again with him.
He is my bestest friend forever, and I think I owe him too much and I should repay him in one way or another.

Best friend forever.