Perspective

After all this while. Finally everything is into perspective.
I've been an arrogant,
self centered,
egotistical,
unbelievable hind sighted person.
I've started to chase after the intangibles, to dabble with the unknowns, to search for greener pastures while all the while the greenest pasture was the one I was standing on.

I've been too engrossed with myself, too caught up with myself.
I've been too selfish, only being interested in my own happiness, only concerned with what I wanted and only engrossed in what I deemed to be pertinent.

Well, if thats the case.
None of my friends around me were deemed pertinent recently, I guess.

I'm just caught up with myself and I'm not proud of it.
I'm just becoming a despicable fool that I swore not to ever become.
I'm becoming the one person I hate.

But I'm glad, glad that all these perspectives came falling down onto me by a few simple messages from one of the person who means the most. A person who was fed up, and honest about it.

I'm tired of acting like everything is okay. Yes, it was okay the day before, the week before. Even the month before.
But today,

I'm not going to hide anymore. I'm not okay.
I need to change.
I need to be a better person.



I need to let go of the past that I was so foolishly clinging onto.
I need to be the person that the future me would come to admire,not the one I hate.

Starting from today.
I start anew.I'm no longer going to harp over the past. It is time to let go.
It is time to change and stop..

I don't want this to become another cycle.
David...

Its time to forget