18th SLC

Another life changing event has passed.

Everything feels surreal you know. Since FAC training number 1, I've been looking forward to 18th SLC. Anticipation, unspoken but felt throughout every single Fac and OT member. It was going to be something big.

And yeah, I could feel it. 

SLC was gonna be OUR event. So it was gonna be OUR job to do it well. I honestly think we did a great job.

This journey wasn't all smooth and fluid, it wasn't all tumultuous and rocky either. Rather, a few small bumps in the middle of the road. 

Thank god I got out of this with all my friends - both new friends and old ones. I've made so many friends in this journey, and maybe that is one reason I don't want SLC to end.

I think of myself as someone who thinks alot. I remember the night before HRSY, I was thinking to myself in the shower "wouldn't I have fun, have all the fun in the world, and then come back to Singapore and suffer blues? How do I minimize those blues?" So I made a promise to myself, that I wouldn't be emo and depressed over that event. That I wouldn't miss Australia. Or at least try not to.... well sadly I failed and got depressed for a few days. 

SLC was the same. I remember lying on my bed the night before SLC "time is gonna pass really fast, would I be so emotional and sad at the end?" I wanted to try and not be so emotional this time round... but I failed again. I think I'm not strong enough yet. But then again.... I don't wanna be strong. I think crying would rather make me release my emotions easier. And I'm happy to cry, cause these are tears of joy.

As a fac, my experience was so different from the 17th SLC, when I was a participant. What I remember first was at the end of 17th SLC, when I swore that I would go as a FAC for the 18th SLC. I remember at the start of this year, I swore to work hard for term one, so that I can go as a FAC for SLC. I remember how sad I was, when I realized that I'll be in Australia during the selection camp, and might not become a FAC. How sad I was then. But then I remember how I was given a chance to go as a FAC when Bao they all offered us a second interview chance. Thank god I was chosen. I hope I didn't disappoint them all. 

Ah darn I think I'm really talkative .. I still havent gone to my main point.

4 days of SLC just passed. My life has probably been changed again. I wasn't proud of everything I did during the convention, but fond memories are all that are inside my heart.

Obsidian was a great faculty. They were so closely bonded, so nonsensical and crazy. But it was probably their craze and nonsense which made them so lively and fun to be with. They were all so enthusiastic and fun, that probably made my job easier. 

Their "睡觉" chants and their daily dose of nonsense made me love this faculty and all of them. Maybe cause most of them are guys too! 8 guys and 2 girls. And thats probably what made underage sex, our CBA topic, so lively. CBA with them was a blast. Even though we didn't do much decoration, we were quite... original in our opinion. We came up with the "protest" which was "no abortion" and it was really really cool and we spread our message to everyone. After that, all the groups started doing protests. 

As a FAC, I think I'm quite slack actually. I'm not someone who is very... focused on doing a single thing. I tend to stray to other things. And thats probably why I gave Obsidian alot of space to do what they want. I gave suggestions and helped them, but I didn't do the stuff for them. They were the leaders of tomorrow, and they have to be independent. Independence is something they need to come up with themselves. I hope they have learnt things. 

My birthday was well spent. Classmates came over to my house on monday, and we got to know each other better. On the first day of SLC, everyone wished me happy birthday, and everyone was so nice and wished me happy birthday. The facs even cheered for me and sang me happy birthday. Honestly I was really, really, touched. I thank all the facs, and I think they are awesome people. My 16th was well spent.

As a FAC I have made many new friends of course. 

Starting with the facs. Akira became a close friend to me. Akira is fun to be with, he can be serious, but most of the time he goes along being nonsensical with me. Awesome head fac. Erin is also a good friend. She is quiet, but she talks alot too! She listens to me and she talks to me about stuff, which was great. As for Phyllis, I don't really know how to say this. I think I was quite wrong to tease her badly. Maybe she couldn't take the teasing. And wiseley telling me that she hates me (and maybe a few other girls) makes me see some parts of me I have probably forgotten, after being in a boys school for so long. I think I was in the wrong. Phyllis is actually very nice and I do really hope she can forgive me.. 

Royanne was a great concept member, and she'll continue to be my good friend. She is really caring and nice, I mean honestly she is. When I was down, I remember she and Akira being worried over me. I think I shouldn't keep things to myself when I'm sad, but thats something for me to change. I read her blog, and I see that she's very truthful in her blog. Just like how I'm being truthful here. And I realized that she did stalk this blog, which I didn't expect. I think the reason I gave her my blog address was because my gut feeling told me Royanne would probably understand my feelings, which I think was actually right. I felt that at the very least I could trust her, I mean I could trust my blog website with Akira and Erin too, cause they are my close friends now, but they didn't ask, so I shan't tell... for now. 

On the last day of SLC, yesterday, I cried. 

It was tears of joy.

Yet it was tears of sorrow too.

I was happy that I have left behind me, a part of the SLC legacy. I was happy that my faculty has grown. 

I was sad that my life would go back to be boring again. How boring would it be... without this thing to look forward to.

But then, I'm gonna remind myself that all the good things in life would always one day end. All of my best times in life have ended, but more will definitely come. I know it. And for now, I'll have to keep to my resolve, of a good term next term. 

As an ending. I have a clue, that I have done most things right during this event. I have a momento mori. And its this : If I die, I wanna die as someone special. Remember as someone special.

Life goes on. Memories last. SLC forever.

Who are we are we are we?

18th 18th SLC!

-- list of events in the past two years [2011-2012 (May) ] --

- 17th SLC

- Boarding School (IBP Term 3 2011)
- Beijing Satellite Campus (Oct Batch 2011)

- 5th HRSY @Brisbane (April 2012)

- 18th SLC 

--People who have changed me--

- Humilis (And our facil Caleb Look) (17th SLC)

- Sit Han Zhe, Tan Jun Ming and Zhao Junning my roommates

- Sia Bao Huei, Tan Yu Chuan, Lim Jing Yu, Tan Kuang Ian. Xu Ming Lu and Low Ying Ning (BSC bro sect) - Shu Ting, Grace, Xuyi, Raynold Toh, Caleb, Yuan Khai

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- Mingxia, Wiseley, Jonathan Chuan, Yao Qiang (HRSY people)

- Facs (Erin, Akira, Wiseley, Xuyi, Chong Hon, Phyllis, Hua Xian, Delphine, Candice, Rou Jing, Adriel, Ernest, Siyuan) and my concept member Royanne (18th SLC)

- Xuan Meng, Marcus, Tailai, Kah Win, Chiran, Han Long, Jarrett, De Quan (Classmates)

I love you all.
- Fun : We are young ft. Janelle Monae